First, eating disorder recovery is not linear. Oh how we wish it were. But it is part of the process of recovery to zig zag, move forward, take some steps back and then forward again (hopefully).
A couple of years ago after the Center For Change Eating Disorders Conference in Utah I went skiing with eating disorder Author Jenni Schaefer at Sundance in Utah. She was learning to snowboard and we had a good laugh about how she spent a lot of time sitting on her behind. At one point, on a rather flat area she took one foot out of the board and walked to get to where we were going. It initiated a conversation about how this reminded us both of the recovery process.
As I've been unpacking from a recent move (hopefully my last in this life), I was feeling overwhelmed with all there is to do and still run a business. We had also recently returned from overseas travel as well...which was good but things get neglected. While watering some very thirsty plants I got the hose caught on a step while dragging it from the back yard to the front, I was almost there and the hose stopped suddenly. I had to lay it down and walk back and found this.
As I bent down to release the hose from being caught on the step, it reminded that I might need to be a little more gentle with myself as I unpack, get settled, keep running my business, follow up with eating disorders folks I met with while in England, and attend to all the other details of a very full life. It also reminded me that often, to move forward we must first go back.
My goal is to bring hope to families helping a loved one recover from an eating disorder. Are you feeling like a loved one in recovery follows this pattern of backwards/forwards? I welcome your comments here, very likely other families are experiencing something similar.